We are The Kings and Queens!

Living life without a purpose.

Living such life is risky, cause you never know where you stand and thus you'll get tired and not know where are your goals. Is like living life the easy way, what ever comes, comes whatever goes, goes. Easily blown by the wind that we nor anyone on earth could predict.

You live, but without a purpose, and I think thats sad. Is like God gave you a life, but you know not what to do with it. Without purpose you only do what you think is right, for the moment, and in the end, whats next?

We have to root our goals and purpose on a strong foundation, something that is worth living for. Thats whats life is all about. Commitment and responsibility, inspiring others while you are inspired by others. Giving hope and strength while you draw hope and strength from others.

Life is beautiful, even when is not. Only if you know how to live it, otherwise, we are no different from the hollowness of this world.

I want to be like those people who give hope and inspiration to other people, it doesn't matter on what matters, all that matters is my life, my words, my action give them another day to live, another day to go on, another day to grow and another day to fight.

My life may seems very insignificant now, but thats my goal, before I die, this is what I wanna do, and I know I'll achieve it someday, as long as I stick close to God and do the will of the Father.

Finally

Finally I'm able to compose my new year resolution!

So here goes!

Personal:

- Be more forgiving
- Be less judgemental
- Be more sharper
- Be more wiser, quick to think slow to speak

God:

- Take up a bigger responsibilty in church
- Read the bible, at least half of the bible to be read finish by the end of the year
- Be on time for every CG and church service

Family:

_ Remember to call them every once a month
- Build stronger relationship with brother
- Learn to buy gifts for parents

Financial:

- Save at least $200 every month
- Eat more simple food

Health:

- Need to achieve a more fitter body by the end of this year or possible, before POS
- Eat more healthy food like fruits
- Eat fast food as little as 2 or 3 times a month

Friendship:

- Build a stronger bond with housemate
- Need to engage CG friends more for spiritual guidance

Work/Homework:

- Need to be confidence in doing homework
- Focus and stop being emo

Wow....seems like I have lots of things to do this year, alright...For those of you who read this, I would appreciate it if you keep me in track because I know I might go astray some how....

Long journey ahead...looking forward to it.

2010, Holding on...

What a year to kick off, wishing everyone happy new year, but never know what my future lies ahead of me.

Am I trying to hard? Am I fighting with my own strength? This world that I live in seems to gets colder every year.

What am I looking for?
What am I waiting for?
Do you know what are you doing to me?

It feels as if the world has turn against me,
My time is lost, some one stole it from me
Messy feelings, cold heart,
I do not bleed, because my blood is frozen,
Distortion of guitar banging in my ears,
Silence....
Still not knowing the truth

Funny how I know who to turn to,
but still I decide to go my way.
The truth is, I'm a fool.
The sun...the sun
I could see the sun in a far distance..
Seems out of reach...

But don't we all bleed the same way?
Don't we all have the same thing to go through?
Knowing this I realize I'm not alone...

This world, this world is cold, but you, you don't have to go...
And you're not sure what you're waiting for and you don't want to know more,
And you're not sure what you're looking for and you don't want to know more..

But hold on,
If you feel like letting go,
Hold on, it gets better than you know,
Don't stop looking you're one step closer,
Don't stop searching its not over,
Hold on!!

Byebye Cat

When you drive, where does your eye set? On the road? Up the sky? Or you just don't care? As a responsible driver, one should look at his/her surrounding before and while driving to make sure that no one or nothing gets hurt...

Do you know how many road accident happen each year in Malaysia? Estimate of 6,300 fatal accident!!!

If you bloody do not cherish your God given life, please go somewhere else and waste it don't do it on the road!!

My kitten died of a result of a stupid car/motor driver who is too bloody blind to see whats under its car...I bloody saw a black cat ran pass me at the middle of a freaking night!! A BLOODY BLACK CAT!!! And yet I avoided it.....

FOOL!! I even try to avoid rats and other rodent on the road as they ran across!! Even thou they are dirty and disgusting!! Try imagining a kid who bloody ran across the road, and if your bloody too blind to see whats in front of you(besides the road; IF you are even bloody looking at it) you'll bloody take an innocent child's life away where that kid could possibly experience the chance of growing up into an adult on this earth!!!

Please, people, drive safely, and stop speeding like you bloody damn need to rush to the emergency ward because your guts is about to spill out?!! C'mon!!! Don't be such an asshol!!!

If you don't care about your life, I don't either, but at least don't take another innocent life with you, ok? At least, before you kill yourself, think about the life of the other person or animal...what are you gonna tell their love one??

Sigh....Am missing my cat already.....

In the morning.....

GOOD MORNING MALAYSIA!!!

Finally!!!!!!

OK, Finally!! ITs UP!!!!!

Various Uni Parade Of School Team

This next video showing the champ of this year's POS team in Emerge KL 09, I think they deserve to win, so do check out their video too, cause its great.

MINT Parade OF School Team Champ of 09

Enjoy People!!! Till then....

We Are The VU and We Can't Be Beat!!

Ah, finally EMERGE is over and it was really refreshing to hear Pastor Kong Hee's message.
As most of you guys know, I joined POS (Parade Of School) this Emerge, its my first time going to Emerge and joining cheerleading, and I really had fun doing it. I learn alot, thanks guys for being so so patient with me and the rest of the boys! Haha...

Ok so here are some of the pics that we took!! Enjoy!
Here are some shots of us on stage....






And this is the aftermath!! SS shots!!

Mike, I wish you were there with us!!

Fiona and me, who at first I thought was my secondary school mate, which is not.

Wan Chean Astro Talent Super Star making hair for me...people want also cannot get ah!! Haha

Wern Sern, the only guy in our team with super huge muscles!!


Me, Dennis and Sophia carrying Shirley...I'm I stronger or what?! ^^


Leng Luis, En Ai and Sara


Jaguars!!

The VU (Various Uni) POS Team!!

All this is made possible thanks to my wonderful, awesome great leader!! Sharon Boon!!

Thank you guys for making POS such a memorable event in my life, I learn alot from it, how to be a team player and be committed to a team with a united vision. I shall return again next year to compete!! VU RAWKS!!!

PS: I'll upload the video once I get it from Anna....stay tune people!!

When The Tough Gets Going....We Keep Fighting!

Its been such a busy month for me, lots of things to be done,
No time to fool around, sacrifices must be made...
Haih...
I know along the road, I'll make mistakes,
Do things that I wish I have not done,
And Did not do the things I wish I should have done it,
Say words that I shouldn't say,
And Say not the words I should have said...

There will be times I'll feel like a broken angel on the ground,
Sometimes I'll feel like a symphony without a sound,
But its ok, We ain't perfect

There will always be tomorrow,
I'm gonna get what's mine,
Keep running, keep Going,
I'm going for the knockout!!
I can do it for sure!!

Cause I know I can make it right!

Super Busy Is Listening To Super Junior

Two more weeks before cheerleading competitions start, and we are practicing almost everyday now. I felt very nervous and excited as well, and thankfully, everything seems to be going well in POS. ^^

More practice means more time in church, less time to do homework, more practices more homework piling up!! o.O
But I believe I can do it, thanks to POS training I begin to visualize my time better, whats left now to do is to do what I've visualize!! Seeing things ahead of you won't make your progress done magically, you still gotta put effort in doing it. Fuuuu~~......Tiring man!!

Alright, back to work, breaks over!

When I Subdue My Anger

Too damage, too much, too late.

This is what I used to believe. Was my philosophy in life...

Today is not my day, not at all...Today was suppose to be the final practice for P.O.S. (Cheerleading) for Wed will be the first preliminary round, where my pastor will give comment on how we can improve.

I left early, at 5.45pm in the evening, hoping to catch the 6pm 1U Bus that head straight to Kelana Jaya. While on the way there, I saw the bus far ahead of me, I waved but the driver either did not notice me or he didn't want to stop for me. I thought to myself, it was alright, there is another Rapid KL bus that head to KJ Station from 1U.

So I waited...and waited, and waited....for BLOODY 1hr30mins I waited for that bus, and to top it all up, it was raining...Finally the bus arrive, the bus was pack with humans, and I have no choice but to stand...

I thought I would reach Kelana Jaya early like always, but today, the road from BU to KJ is jam, super bloody jam. I was force to stand for another 30-45mins or so...I so late for practice...I was kinda worried for my team already....

And finally I thought by bad day was over, but no....I waited for another bus to Pyramid and that took me another 45mins or so...finally at 9pm the bus decided to move. I was on the phone with my mum, currently my family is going through some crisis, like serious crisis(Don't ask, I won't tell, if you wanna help, I suggest you start praying)...so usually even on a normal day, my mum would usually take more than half an hour to finish her conversation, since today is special, she talked for more than 45mins. Like I said, I waited 45mins for the bus, and finally the bus DECIDED to move, and not forgetting my mum is still on the phone with me.

I was the last person to go up the bus, I flash my touch'n'go card to the driver, he replied "tak boleh" so I step back open my wallet just to find I don't have any 1Ringgit bill...he closed the door and left...I was so frustrated, I sms one of my member telling her that I can't make it, even with the next bus on the way, I'll reach my church probably about 10pm, and the practice is about to finish I thought. Therefore I decide to head home instead for I have a pile of homework not done.

So I called Anna and complaint about how suckish our public transport is. I reach home, to my surprise another friend of mine called me, asking am I coming to church, I told her nicely that I couldn't come because da da da....in the end all I got was some scolding....

I hate to let the whole team down just because of my own inability, but honestly, I dunno what else I could have done, I could have called I thought but normally my call and sms was not answered...well, maybe I'm not so close with these new friends of mine, maybe its not their habit to pick up calls and replied smses...I dunno....It doesn't matter...

All I know is that at the end of the day, I was so pissed, and the worst part is I dunno who I should blame, no one is totally right, and no one is totally wrong, but even knowing that I can't help to be BLOODY ANGRY....I'm sorry, but I cannot help it...

I'm so pressured by so many things to do, but yet I cannot neglect any cause these are my commitment....this made me think of "IF"....
Like I said before, I hate the word IF so much that to me it felt like a swear word...

I began to listen to my rock songs, Alexisonfire is my fav to listen to at times like this...rough hands is the title...

And my thought for a moment began to have negative thinking, and thus lead me to imagine the life I used to had when I was much younger, being more mature than many of my friends, but yet so repulsive, so rebellious....

I use to swear and curse and say things that I know I shouldn't have said. I hate myself for doing that but yet I felt at peace when I did it. Words like Fuck! Chibai! Lanjiao! but never Bitch....and I almost join the brotherhood of gangsters just to fit in.

As I began to reflect I realize how much I've grown, change, into this person I am today...I've come a long way, and to only know that others are growing and learning as well, thats why I did not defend my self when my friend scolded me, even thou I was angry, damn angry, bloody angry...I know she has her reason...

I am learning and always will be, I've realize that I've grown to a higher stage in life, a new challenge. Please be patient with me, for I'm not the kind of person who pick up things fast, I learn through mistakes and short comings in life. Don't be quick to judge, for I only know this much, but teach me instead and I shall learn from whoever is willing with a grateful heart.

This is life, what is life without short comings eh?

What matters to me most, is that, at the end of the day, no matter what shit was thrown at me, before I go to sleep, I just wanna smile, so that tomorrow will be a brighter day.

The Pain!!

Something REAL silly happen to me.
My friends invite me to play football today. I grab my glove, and head on to KBU field.
I was bloody excited and just did only some light warm up. -.-"

Such a dumb ass I am, and because of the sugar rush in my blood, way before we even had a real match I sprained my leg..... ==* AArrggHHH!!!

And now, my leg is swollen. I can't walk, or even sit straight.... ==***

This Sux!!

An Act of Dicatatorship.

What does leadership means to you? What do you understand about leadership?

Its hard to understand why some people just wanna be on top of the others and make themselves feel good by doing so. No, in fact I don't understand at all. Human are just too selfish, but yet again the truth is only a handful of people who are so selfish that they ignore the rest and thinking that the whole world is against them. Thanks to them, they cause the whole world to go into disillusion and believing that everyone is a fake, or at least, this is what I think.

Whats the point of getting to heaven when you're the only one who is gonna be there?

To me, a leader should act as an example, a challenger, an inspire. A leader should not make all the decision making but guide the unguided or the lost to the path that might be good or better.

"Leadership is ultimately about creating a way for people to contribute to making something extraordinary happen." - Alan Keith

Honestly, is not easy being a leader, because leader comes with lots of responsibility and commitment. Some people wanna win so badly that they take matters into their own hands, turn it around and became an Autocrat or a Dictator.

Winning is not everything, by proclaiming that you only wanna do whats best for the "team" you indirectly saying I only care for myself, and only doing the team a favor for me.

This is a friendly warning to all my friends out there, if you are chosen to be a leader, be proud and inspire your team so that you will bring you and your friends to a level of new heights. Understand your members and always put them first, not you.

A leader is like a servant, he helps the master with the household and make everything fine, and when the master is happy, so will you be. A spirit of servant hood.

If you're not chosen to be a leader, don't be sad, be you can play your part to inspire others to inspire you, and don't try to be funny by taking over your leader's post. If you do so, I'm sorry to say that you just dug a hole for yourself and the end result is people gonna laugh at you no matter how good or bad you are.

I'm back!

With a brand new post!








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There! :)

Starring Into The Abyss

Have you ever felt lost before?
Felt as if you dug a hole for yourself?
Today is the day that I feel that I've created a trap,
And step into it on purpose.
And I thought I was strong,
strong enough to run this race.
Sometimes I wonder, who's race am I running?
The obvious answer to that should be mine.
But I make it seems as if I'm doing it out of burden and relentless...
Where have all the passion gone to?
Is this the price to pay for abandoning You once?

I'm tired of falling back and getting up, why can't I run like I use to?
Why can't I fight back when the enemy come?
Why is my thoughts running wild?
Is like a shadowy figure lurking in the dark trying to converse me into a beast.
I hate fighting with my image in the mirror.
It makes me look like a clueless fool that can never overcome his weakness.
Asking why countless time won't solve my misery.

I need momentum, I need inspiration, a significant touch.
A touch that would turn my dead body into a being that is glowing with life.
When will that day come?
I'm tired of trying, and fail as I go.
Sick of it, disgust of it, demented of it....
I even feel like puking at times.....

I need You desperately, don't You ever leave me!
I will die without You....
Stay with me, cause all I ever need is You
The provider of my life

The Shadow Of The Day

In a little time of happiness,
Confusion starts creeping in,
Arguments break out,
Relationship distorted,
Oh my....how can two person make such a chaos in a little home.

This is the time for new beginning,
It should start afresh?
Does it mean that everything has to be flatten and rebuild again?
Where have we gone wrong?
How can a hardworking man receive so much stress and pain?

Is this Your way of dealing things?
Is this how You break the stronghold of stubbornness?
Oh how I wish I could see Your plan,
To know the future of tomorrow and correct it before it goes out of hand.
But yet, will it go as I wish it would?

Even through this trial and testing,
I know You have provided a way out for us.
You have never left us nor give up on us.
If only they could see that this is all part of Your plan,
Then will they not argue day and night.

Won't You deliver us from pain,
I feel like as if anytime my world will fall apart.
How true is my feeling inside of me?
Oh no matter, my faith still lie with You,
For You are my savior.

This is the conclusion of my poem,
For I have surrender my burden into Your hand,
No longer shall I worry for my tomorrow,
I know that when the sun shines again, I'll see You there.
You are my God, and forever You will be.

How About A Change?

Its been quite sometime that I blog about anything. Finally I was truly inspired to start blogging again...
I guess its really time for me to move on into a new wave of blogging. I believe that blogging is a way to connect to people who you usually can't connect to. Making new friends along the way and be a great blessing to them.
Here's what I'm gonna do, this year, I'm gonna blog less about me and more about things that might benefit you or the people around you.
I'm really inspired by this guy David Oh(click for link), go read his blog.

Just only last week Sharon Boon(click for link) share in Cell Group(CG) about the story of the boy and the star fish.
Before scrolling down to read the story, first think about this,

Can one man make a difference today?

Original story by: Loren Eiseley

One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed
a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean.

Approaching the boy, he asked, “What are you doing?”

The youth replied, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean.
The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.”

“Son,” the man said, “don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish?
You can’t make a difference!”

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf. Then, smiling at the man, he said…”
"I made a difference for that one."

At the end of the day, it still comes down to one person, You.

You hold the power to build or destroy the lives around you, you are the gap that stand in between them. Many people think that the little things they do counts for nothing, but on the contrary the little things that you do is the most important impact you could give.

This year has just only begun, what is the goal in your life? What is your target? What is your next move? Let us not sit around and wait for the world to fall, do something.

As for me, I have already begun my new year resolution mission. The problem is not asking why, but more of asking HOW. If you keep asking why, you will never take the initiative to do anything. If you ask how, it shows that you are willing to learn and change for the better.

So my friends, January is almost over, yet its not too late to change....Start now and end the year with Results!

Would You Like Your Coffee With Dota?

Been busy recently with homework lately, and lots more to come. Yet I'm able to fine joy and time to type my blog =)

Lately, my church is having our annually building fund program. So, we're raising money so that we can build a bigger and better church to house more people! It's gonna be exciting!

So due to that reason, and of cause for extra income purposes, I have decided to work in Starbucks!!!
Yea, a coffee shop that I always wanted to work and experience ever since I finish form 5.
Is this a dream come true? I hope so....
Today is gonna be my second interview, and according to the assistant store manager, it seems like I'm most likely to be hired!!
Haha, is kinda exciting....but then again is not all fun and games when my time is really challenge by my homework.
I'll like to push myself and see how far I can go with this challenge....and if I manage to pull it through, I'm sure its gonna be worth it...

Hmm....Yesterday me and Hsien Wen was playing dota in our house and were screaming our heads of till Summer came down looking so curious with the game that were playing....Haha
Is dota that interesting, that mesmerizing? I dunno....
But as I search through the web, this is what I found...

Hmm, playing dota looks stress ya?

Why so serious?

Now thats better....owned someone?

This guy seems to be utterly clueless of what dota is...i think

This is how a dota gamers face look like....
I myself find it amusing and interesting....then again this game can be really cruel, I mean people will scold and curse you just because the team is loosing....
Like there's one time when I was playing online with some strangers, they chase me away just because I'm not up to their standard....
So sad T.T
But as for me, I treat it as a game, I don't care what others think....nothing to be serious about, is just a game.
Win or lose, it doesn't matter....
Hmm......I wonder how my face will look like when I play dota?
Would like to capture my face one day...haha
I'm sure it'll be funny....

Till then....

When Money Have Legs and Wings

When I'm broke, I can only afford Maggie Mee.
When I'm broke, I only drink ice kosong.
When I'm broke, I have to fork money out to pay rent.
When I'm broke, I feel so desperate.
When I'm broke, I'm reluctant to go out.
When I'm broke, I feel like breaking things.
When I'm broke, I feel broken.

Why I'm broke?
The truth is, not because I over spent my money but money itself has emotion, feelings, sense...
One day they decide to run away with my whole lot of other money.
One by one they disappear into the night....
This is why I'm broke.

Your money has feelings too, don't hurt your money's feeling or it will run away just like mine did.
So sad....

Take Notice

Dear Reader,

I assume you have notice that it's been super long since I write any post. Well, is not that I lazy or busy(ok sometimes), but i'm trying to enhance my blog and make it more interesting.
I would like to apologize for any inconvenience to you cause of having to click my blog even when there's no updates. I would try my best to speed up the process. Till then there is no updates!

Thank you all for being patience.
Terima Kasih kerana sabar menunggu.
谢谢全部因为耐心。


Yours Annoyingly:
MaximumJon :þ

Tag, You're It!!!

Haih....i really dunno what to post these days, been feeling really bored.
I feel so bad for my readers...will you guys ever forgive me??
Hehe, once I get my hands on some pic will post it out soon ya?

At the mean time, here's some tag...

I THINK I'M...
1. A psycho?: When I'm angry and mad? Hardly anyone saw me psycho b4, so don't push it!! You don like me when i'm PSYCHO!!! Muahahaha
2. A nerd?: Nerd? Do I even look like one??
3. Ghetto?: -.-" No....
4. Two-faced?: I only got one face where got two?? Do you think I have two face?? Like the batman character....Hahahahaha
5. Obnoxious?: Haha, dunno....maybe I am to some people?? But then again...You think I care?? =p
6. Immature?: Dunno wor, I think not lo....okay maybe sometimes...
7. Mature?: Er, I'm very mature...like uncle....hahaha
8. Moody?: I can be moody at times, VERY moody...
9. Alcoholic?: I may drink but never once an alcoholic....The most I can drink is only a bottle I guess....
10. Lovable?: Darn Lovable, don't you think so?? Hahahaha....Not!!!


JUST SOME QUESTIONS...
About the person who tags you

1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?: Aren't you grown up enough? How big you wanna be?? Anyway, a very good business woman, who invent new lollipop sweets!! Hahaha
2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: Of cause la
(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?: I hope not that person la (you know who i'm talking about)
3. When is my birthday?: Alamak...er June 4 1988!!! Correct??
4. Who is my best friend?: Ah, dunno....
5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?: Eh don't perasan, I don't about you that often k...Mika - Lollipop song...hahaha
6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?: Nope
7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?: Your name sounds just fine. =)
8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: Er, no...
what was it? I said no d lo
9. If u could give me anything...what would it be?: Lollipop??
10. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?: That I'll bring you out for dinner before you go to England, and thats a promise!!

-Tag by Shirlyn-

Now is my turn to tag you!!
- Adeline the doink
-Claire bear
- Ashley the very long
- Anna dear
- Adrienne the aunty