Starring Into The Abyss

Have you ever felt lost before?
Felt as if you dug a hole for yourself?
Today is the day that I feel that I've created a trap,
And step into it on purpose.
And I thought I was strong,
strong enough to run this race.
Sometimes I wonder, who's race am I running?
The obvious answer to that should be mine.
But I make it seems as if I'm doing it out of burden and relentless...
Where have all the passion gone to?
Is this the price to pay for abandoning You once?

I'm tired of falling back and getting up, why can't I run like I use to?
Why can't I fight back when the enemy come?
Why is my thoughts running wild?
Is like a shadowy figure lurking in the dark trying to converse me into a beast.
I hate fighting with my image in the mirror.
It makes me look like a clueless fool that can never overcome his weakness.
Asking why countless time won't solve my misery.

I need momentum, I need inspiration, a significant touch.
A touch that would turn my dead body into a being that is glowing with life.
When will that day come?
I'm tired of trying, and fail as I go.
Sick of it, disgust of it, demented of it....
I even feel like puking at times.....

I need You desperately, don't You ever leave me!
I will die without You....
Stay with me, cause all I ever need is You
The provider of my life

The Shadow Of The Day

In a little time of happiness,
Confusion starts creeping in,
Arguments break out,
Relationship distorted,
Oh my....how can two person make such a chaos in a little home.

This is the time for new beginning,
It should start afresh?
Does it mean that everything has to be flatten and rebuild again?
Where have we gone wrong?
How can a hardworking man receive so much stress and pain?

Is this Your way of dealing things?
Is this how You break the stronghold of stubbornness?
Oh how I wish I could see Your plan,
To know the future of tomorrow and correct it before it goes out of hand.
But yet, will it go as I wish it would?

Even through this trial and testing,
I know You have provided a way out for us.
You have never left us nor give up on us.
If only they could see that this is all part of Your plan,
Then will they not argue day and night.

Won't You deliver us from pain,
I feel like as if anytime my world will fall apart.
How true is my feeling inside of me?
Oh no matter, my faith still lie with You,
For You are my savior.

This is the conclusion of my poem,
For I have surrender my burden into Your hand,
No longer shall I worry for my tomorrow,
I know that when the sun shines again, I'll see You there.
You are my God, and forever You will be.

How About A Change?

Its been quite sometime that I blog about anything. Finally I was truly inspired to start blogging again...
I guess its really time for me to move on into a new wave of blogging. I believe that blogging is a way to connect to people who you usually can't connect to. Making new friends along the way and be a great blessing to them.
Here's what I'm gonna do, this year, I'm gonna blog less about me and more about things that might benefit you or the people around you.
I'm really inspired by this guy David Oh(click for link), go read his blog.

Just only last week Sharon Boon(click for link) share in Cell Group(CG) about the story of the boy and the star fish.
Before scrolling down to read the story, first think about this,

Can one man make a difference today?

Original story by: Loren Eiseley

One day a man was walking along the beach when he noticed
a boy picking something up and gently throwing it into the ocean.

Approaching the boy, he asked, “What are you doing?”

The youth replied, “Throwing starfish back into the ocean.
The surf is up and the tide is going out. If I don’t throw them back, they’ll die.”

“Son,” the man said, “don’t you realize there are miles and miles of beach and hundreds of starfish?
You can’t make a difference!”

After listening politely, the boy bent down, picked up another starfish,
and threw it back into the surf. Then, smiling at the man, he said…”
"I made a difference for that one."

At the end of the day, it still comes down to one person, You.

You hold the power to build or destroy the lives around you, you are the gap that stand in between them. Many people think that the little things they do counts for nothing, but on the contrary the little things that you do is the most important impact you could give.

This year has just only begun, what is the goal in your life? What is your target? What is your next move? Let us not sit around and wait for the world to fall, do something.

As for me, I have already begun my new year resolution mission. The problem is not asking why, but more of asking HOW. If you keep asking why, you will never take the initiative to do anything. If you ask how, it shows that you are willing to learn and change for the better.

So my friends, January is almost over, yet its not too late to change....Start now and end the year with Results!

Would You Like Your Coffee With Dota?

Been busy recently with homework lately, and lots more to come. Yet I'm able to fine joy and time to type my blog =)

Lately, my church is having our annually building fund program. So, we're raising money so that we can build a bigger and better church to house more people! It's gonna be exciting!

So due to that reason, and of cause for extra income purposes, I have decided to work in Starbucks!!!
Yea, a coffee shop that I always wanted to work and experience ever since I finish form 5.
Is this a dream come true? I hope so....
Today is gonna be my second interview, and according to the assistant store manager, it seems like I'm most likely to be hired!!
Haha, is kinda exciting....but then again is not all fun and games when my time is really challenge by my homework.
I'll like to push myself and see how far I can go with this challenge....and if I manage to pull it through, I'm sure its gonna be worth it...

Hmm....Yesterday me and Hsien Wen was playing dota in our house and were screaming our heads of till Summer came down looking so curious with the game that were playing....Haha
Is dota that interesting, that mesmerizing? I dunno....
But as I search through the web, this is what I found...

Hmm, playing dota looks stress ya?

Why so serious?

Now thats better....owned someone?

This guy seems to be utterly clueless of what dota is...i think

This is how a dota gamers face look like....
I myself find it amusing and interesting....then again this game can be really cruel, I mean people will scold and curse you just because the team is loosing....
Like there's one time when I was playing online with some strangers, they chase me away just because I'm not up to their standard....
So sad T.T
But as for me, I treat it as a game, I don't care what others think....nothing to be serious about, is just a game.
Win or lose, it doesn't matter....
Hmm......I wonder how my face will look like when I play dota?
Would like to capture my face one day...haha
I'm sure it'll be funny....

Till then....

When Money Have Legs and Wings

When I'm broke, I can only afford Maggie Mee.
When I'm broke, I only drink ice kosong.
When I'm broke, I have to fork money out to pay rent.
When I'm broke, I feel so desperate.
When I'm broke, I'm reluctant to go out.
When I'm broke, I feel like breaking things.
When I'm broke, I feel broken.

Why I'm broke?
The truth is, not because I over spent my money but money itself has emotion, feelings, sense...
One day they decide to run away with my whole lot of other money.
One by one they disappear into the night....
This is why I'm broke.

Your money has feelings too, don't hurt your money's feeling or it will run away just like mine did.
So sad....

Take Notice

Dear Reader,

I assume you have notice that it's been super long since I write any post. Well, is not that I lazy or busy(ok sometimes), but i'm trying to enhance my blog and make it more interesting.
I would like to apologize for any inconvenience to you cause of having to click my blog even when there's no updates. I would try my best to speed up the process. Till then there is no updates!

Thank you all for being patience.
Terima Kasih kerana sabar menunggu.
谢谢全部因为耐心。


Yours Annoyingly:
MaximumJon :þ

Tag, You're It!!!

Haih....i really dunno what to post these days, been feeling really bored.
I feel so bad for my readers...will you guys ever forgive me??
Hehe, once I get my hands on some pic will post it out soon ya?

At the mean time, here's some tag...

I THINK I'M...
1. A psycho?: When I'm angry and mad? Hardly anyone saw me psycho b4, so don't push it!! You don like me when i'm PSYCHO!!! Muahahaha
2. A nerd?: Nerd? Do I even look like one??
3. Ghetto?: -.-" No....
4. Two-faced?: I only got one face where got two?? Do you think I have two face?? Like the batman character....Hahahahaha
5. Obnoxious?: Haha, dunno....maybe I am to some people?? But then again...You think I care?? =p
6. Immature?: Dunno wor, I think not lo....okay maybe sometimes...
7. Mature?: Er, I'm very mature...like uncle....hahaha
8. Moody?: I can be moody at times, VERY moody...
9. Alcoholic?: I may drink but never once an alcoholic....The most I can drink is only a bottle I guess....
10. Lovable?: Darn Lovable, don't you think so?? Hahahaha....Not!!!


JUST SOME QUESTIONS...
About the person who tags you

1. What do u think I'll be when I grow up?: Aren't you grown up enough? How big you wanna be?? Anyway, a very good business woman, who invent new lollipop sweets!! Hahaha
2. (a) Do u think I'll get married?: Of cause la
(b) If u do..who do u think I'll marry?: I hope not that person la (you know who i'm talking about)
3. When is my birthday?: Alamak...er June 4 1988!!! Correct??
4. Who is my best friend?: Ah, dunno....
5. What song (if any) reminds u of me?: Eh don't perasan, I don't about you that often k...Mika - Lollipop song...hahaha
6. Do I remind u of any characters on TV?: Nope
7. If u could rename me...what would my name be?: Your name sounds just fine. =)
8. Have u ever had a dream about me?: Er, no...
what was it? I said no d lo
9. If u could give me anything...what would it be?: Lollipop??
10. If u could promise me anything..what would it be?: That I'll bring you out for dinner before you go to England, and thats a promise!!

-Tag by Shirlyn-

Now is my turn to tag you!!
- Adeline the doink
-Claire bear
- Ashley the very long
- Anna dear
- Adrienne the aunty