Starring Into The Abyss

Have you ever felt lost before?
Felt as if you dug a hole for yourself?
Today is the day that I feel that I've created a trap,
And step into it on purpose.
And I thought I was strong,
strong enough to run this race.
Sometimes I wonder, who's race am I running?
The obvious answer to that should be mine.
But I make it seems as if I'm doing it out of burden and relentless...
Where have all the passion gone to?
Is this the price to pay for abandoning You once?

I'm tired of falling back and getting up, why can't I run like I use to?
Why can't I fight back when the enemy come?
Why is my thoughts running wild?
Is like a shadowy figure lurking in the dark trying to converse me into a beast.
I hate fighting with my image in the mirror.
It makes me look like a clueless fool that can never overcome his weakness.
Asking why countless time won't solve my misery.

I need momentum, I need inspiration, a significant touch.
A touch that would turn my dead body into a being that is glowing with life.
When will that day come?
I'm tired of trying, and fail as I go.
Sick of it, disgust of it, demented of it....
I even feel like puking at times.....

I need You desperately, don't You ever leave me!
I will die without You....
Stay with me, cause all I ever need is You
The provider of my life