God Of Wonders

Many nights I woke up feeling heavy inside,
Not of guilt but of breath.
Couldn't gasp enough air, hesitantly I arose from my slumber.
Many times I questioned, "God, why? Why does it return to haunt me?"
At times like this I felt so helpless, scared and couldn't do anything but to pray.
Then it is times like this I remember the story of the foot print in the sand.
It is then I knew that my God was actually with me all the time.
It was then I knew that I was being carried on His back.
Never once He has abandoned me nor forsake me despite of my ignorance.

I felt at ease when I know that He is with me.
And as I continue to believe in that,
My breath began to return to me slowly.
There's a lot I could have further question,
But I choose to praise God even in my storms.

Questions I can ask later,
But what more important is the task You had had me to do.
To continue living, to fulfill my destiny.
I know it is not time for me to die.
No, not now.
I shall remember the story of that foot print,
Not just now, but for the rest of my life.


"......Why, when I needed you most, have you not been there for me? The Lord replied, “The times when you have seen only one set of footprints, my child, is when I carried you.” - Mary Stevenson, 1936

Just Being Super Random

You know, I have this really weird thing inside me.
Is like I never buy anything for myself.
Well, hardly.
To me, buying clothes, shoes, accessories, etc are all waste of money.
I rather buy something delicious to feed my stomach than to buy all those stuff.
But then again, whatever I eat, will go down the toilet.
Not like clothes, they won't rot away, right?
So why do I choose food over clothes?
Maybe is because my dad said, "Whatever you wanna eat, eat. When it comes to food no need to think so much".
Hmmmmm.........
But then again, food taste so much better to clothes!!
Nyahahaha.....
The only things that I'm willing to buy for myself are things that is unnecessary, like mini handcuffs, the voodoo doll key chain thingy, cute lil toys, and there's even one time I attempt to buy a set of mini sushi!! But I ran out of cash....hehe
Well, that;s how I work I guess.
I only buy clothes when I really need em, or either its really really super nice!

So to cut the long story short, I recently just bought something really useless again.
Ok not so useless la, I can use it while I'm spraying my project next time.
I cannot tahan the smell of sprays, makes me dizzy. (That's just my excuse)
Check out the pics I Syok-Sendiri.... =þ

Yep, its a face mask, I bought it from Tribe in Dataran Pahlawan (FYI, it's a shopping mall).
They have other cool stuff there too, but this one caught my attention the most.
I always wanted to get a mask.
Finally, I got one.
Feeling darn satisfied.
Price? RM45.90
Oh, by the way, I just cut my hair too!!
Haha....man I'm super random.

Are We Done Yet??

If Only We're All Colourblind...

Hey all, remember I promise to blog about my Bentong trip?
Well guess what?
Anna went back to kl and therefore I don't have any picture with me.....haha, sorry guys!!
Anyway, you can always check out Anna's blog if you wanna read about my trip in Bentong.

But for today, I just wanna express my anger, my soul, my pain....
I'm sad because there are some "people" think that they are "The Prince of the Land" therefore that makes the rest of us is immigrant, "tumpang" their country.
So sad right to hear something like this coming out from our own country men.
They forgot it is us that make this land prosperous.
It was us that help to build this country.
Without us there will be no today for this country.
We treat this country as our own land, our own sanctuary and our own home!
We never plan to take over the power, the fame and the stardom of you people that hold on to the high post!
All we want is unity, working together hand in hand as HUMAN BEING!!!
But can that hope even be possible?
I wonder......

Despite that, I know all this is just a political gimmick.
Small fry being a puppet to a Puppeteer who plans to take over the reigning power.
I know that the Puppeteer is behind all this.
Following the footsteps of his father, trying to cause havoc just like in the pass, that fateful 13th May.
Oh no, not this time, we have seen through all this.
We know your plans and skims to kill us and destroy the peace in this country.
We are not stupid you know....
We have seen it before and now we are smarter than you are.
We shall not fall for the same trick that your forefathers has once trick us before.
I believe that their days are numbered.
Evil can never last forever.

Even with such pain I feel,
No matter what people say,
This land that I live in will always be my home.
I love Malaysia and I'm not shy to admit it.
Its the only reason why I read about politics, interested in it.
Cause my future depends on it.
I cannot afford to be ignorant on this.
Even thou there is so much going on,
My hope and faith for this country will never die.
I believe one day, It can fly too!

"Even through the darkest night, this fire burns always" - Killswitch Engage

Just Thoughts

Ah I'm finally back at Malacca.
To be exact I just came back from Bentong, Pahang few days ago.
And thanks to "Uncle" Hsien Wen hospitality, me and Anna really had a wonderful time there!
If you ask me, I definitely will go back there again.
The fresh air, the cold weather, the yucky hot spring, the beautiful waterfall and of cause, the view of Genting from the entrance of Hsien Wen's taman.
Oh ya, and not forgetting the Shu Shu Fan(don't ask me what it means, I got no idea at all). Is a food that they serve there. Nothing special about the food, but its the thing that they sell at a specific time that's what makes the food special.
Will tell you guys everything once I get the picture from Anna.

But for today, let me entertain you with my thoughts. Alright?
Its ok, you can always ignore my blog and stop reading at anytime. ;)

Ok first of all, I would like to congrats Anwar Ibrahim on winning the Permatang Pauh election, and for getting into the parliament today.
After such a long and immense battle with BN, finally he got his chance to sit and fight for the PM sit in the parliament and hopefully he won't forget to defend the right of the people in the country without any biasness, as he promise.
Hopefully through this change, Malaysia would be a better place to live without any racism, political bias and corruption.
I never like BN anyway....

Dato' Anwar and His wife trying to look cool

Ok enough politics for the day.
Yes yes I know, not many people like politics, but at least you must know whats going on mah, you need to know the fate of the country as you are living in this country call Malaysia.
Yes it may be sad to live here, FOR NOW.
But I believe that one day it'll be a better place for you and me.
Impossible is Nothing. Learn from Adidas man!! ^-^

As for me, I love my country.
I never thought of migrating.
I've been to a few country like S. Korea, Singapore and Australia.
They are all lovely and beautiful, huge and have beautiful weather, but nothing feels like home.
Don't believe me? Ask Beverly *Click Here* if you dunno who she is, even she misses home too!

How bout you guys? How do you feel about Malaysia?

For those of you who read my blog, pls pls pls leave a comment.
Let me know your thoughts, speak out. Anything just say something. I would love to hear from you. ^-^

Ok next topic.
Do you know that I'm a crazy football fan?
I am so crazy over football that I've gone to the extend and imagine, IF I was ever born in England, I would most likely join a football club, and work my way through so that I could play with the stars and be a star myself! Haha...
Can you imagine what I'm imagining right now? No?
Ok here's the link *Click Here*

Am I crazy or what? Hmm....
I guess other football junkie like me would have the same dream too don't tya think so?
Anyway, ever since the beginning of the new season of BPL(Barclay's Premiere League), I was on tip toe waiting for the new FIFA 09 to be release.
Its the only game that I'm still playing after all these years.
And as I was searching on youtube today, guess what??
I found the very first trailer of the game!!!
Woohoo!!!
I quickly click the link, waiting patiently for it to load finish.
After waited for so long, ok not that long, I finally get to watch it.
As expected, the graphic of the game was real like!!
Its super real as if I'm watching a real player playing the ball!
The movement, the reflex of the player, the physics......WOW!!!
I was amazed by the job well done of the producers.
Congrats to EA(The company of the game) once again for a superb job well done!!!
The trailer was awesome!!
For those of you who wanna check it out, *Click Here*
And for the web link *Click Here*

Here's the game cover of the UK version

Will blog about the Bentong trip once I get the pics.
Till then see ya!!
Remember to leave comments ya!

PS: I Don't like phantoms. Its creepy ya know!!

Spilling My Thoughts Out

Lately I've been wondering,
How is my room in kl like?
It's been awhile since I've gone back there.

Well, tomorrow it'll be my first time since almost 4 months ago.
I wonder how is the condition of the grass outside my house?
Did anyone pull it?
I wonder how thick is the dust off my room?
Will it be a few inch thick?
Did any new "residence" move into my room while I'm gone? You know I hate those especially with cold blood and makes noise in the middle of the night.

How about the poor fridge down stairs?
Has the freezer turn into an ice cave again?
Did anyone clean it?
And the washing machine, is it spinning?

Come to think of it, I took all those things for granted while I'm in Malacca.
Just because I don't have to use em I don't really care
Feeling a little bit guilty.

I hope my house is in tip top shape
Hope Hsien Wen could handle the pressure of being the only man in the house.
Guess I shouldn't worried should I?
After all, is not like I couldn't trust my house mates.
Still I couldn't help but to wonder what will my house look like when I get back tomorrow.

KL........
I never like the hectic life there
Not everyone in KL seems so alive
Mostly dead
Its a big city after all
But I miss the overly build gigantic mall there
Somehow it made me feel like home
Somehow it acted like an escape to another world of new

Aih...
It seems that I get a lil emotional when it comes to moving back to KL
It made me think about the life here in Malacca.
How I wish I can bring a little this of Malacca and a little that of KL to where I live
But life is unfair, you cannot wish for everything to come true
Yet its beautiful because it brings you to a new beginning

Never the less I've been looking forward to meet a new challenge,
To challenge myself in whatever may come my way
To see the world like I've never seen before

I can't wait for the new semester to start for me
Can't wait to achieve new gold and push myself a little bit harder
Its a new beginning, a new road
I can't afford to let the my life just pass by the way it has
After all, I only get to be 20 once
=)

A Moment To Remember

Fuuh!! Is such a tiring month for me...
so many work to be done, so busy running errands for parents and preparing for birthdays, etc....
Finally, after Soooooooo long, I now can finally blog again!! Yay!!

I taught of resuming writing my blog yesterday but then I was busy watching the badminton match that made Malaysia stood up on its feet for almost an hour!!
I guess most of you guys watch the match right?
On that evening my family decided to tapau(take away) from a famous restoran just around the corner of my Taman food court area. Usually people always dine in but on that day, people were queuing up to buy food back just to watch the match!! And that delayed my dad from bringing the food back home earlier so that I feast on it to satisfy my hunger.
I read from the news paper today that people actually throw their movie tickets away just to go to the mamak stall at Damanasara just to watch the match on the big screen!
And I also read that even Dato' Seri Anwar Ibrahim(PKR Defacto) stop for a brief moment at a mamak stall just to watch the match before continuing his campaign!!
Wow!!
This is truly amazing, the first time ever I've seen and experience this in Malaysia.
It made me so proud to know that there are still people in Malaysia that have not forgotten the true meaning of being Malaysian.

I watch the whole match until the giving of the medals.
Although Malaysia didn't win, but I was really proud of Chong Wei. He was truly amazing.
He has made history for himself and Malaysia to be the first ever Malaysian Olympian to ever win a medal in badminton singles.
And to be rank world No. 2 in one of the most famous sports? Wow!! I mean who would have thought that a Malaysian could actually achieve something that big? (Oh and please don't include that "Astronaut" or should I say Space Monkey who goes on a joy ride in space and doing "Duh" experiment with our Money)
It is truly the best gift that Malaysia have receive especially in the month of Merdeka.
Never mind if theres no flags and decoration being hung up high in the streets, but a show of support to this fellow Malaysian by thousands other Malaysians is enough to stir up the spirit of Merdeka in the country.

Although Chong Wei failed to defeat China's own version of the Flash(Lin Dan), but he made his fellow country men proud, and he went down with dignity. Thats all that matters.

Lee Chong Wei, A man to be remember

Happy Merdeka Everyone!!

Got Smile? Part IV

YES!! Its finally done, finally over.....
My torment has come to an end....well....most of it.
The picture up there is my teeth, my "beautiful" teeth.
I had my braces done for 3days now, and I don like the feeling of it.
I know its only like 3days but its really really annoying!!
Yea, maybe I'll get use to it(I hope).

Okay, let me start my story at the clinic.
I arrive there at 10.30, waited for more than an hour there, cause some old auntie came late thus delay my appointment. But its ok, I'm not mad. I have news paper to read anyway. =D
I taught I'll be really nervous or scared or sweating when I got there, but none....well maybe I was a lil nervous but other than that, no feeling at all!
Hmm....maybe I just wanna get this over with asap so that I could enjoy my food once again.
Anyway, while I was happily reading away the papers, the nurse(actually I call her auntie Rachel, but is easier if I just call her nurse....feels weird calling her that) called me in.
I kinda forgotten why I was there in the first place. Must be the football article.
So I got up, fold the paper nicely, put it on the glass table, walk right down the hall, open the door that says "Surgery I", lie down on the chair while I wait for the doc to attend to me.
At that moment, I felt a lil more nervous, but not enough for me to get panic.

The doc check my teeth for awhile, then immediately grab the syringe and injected me.
I was a lil shock as I wasn't prepare for that encounter.
When I was younger, I really get freak out when the doc bring out the syringe. I was so scared that the doctor had to hide the thing from me and trick me to believe that I'm not getting the injection.
You should look at the darn thing, is huge I tell ya!! HUGE!! And I never like the numb feeling.
3 days ago my whole mouth was numb. I lost count of how many times he injected me.
I couldn't talk right. It felt like someone had just wham me with a baseball bat or something. Then the doc left me there for 10mins to get the medicine to work properly.
Since I got nothing to do while waiting, and I couldn't sleep, so I took some pic....

While waiting....

After 10mins the doc came back, clean my teeth and everything, THEN....
He pulls a plier out from no where, then he said, you SHOULDN'T fell any pain, even if there is a slightest pain, raise your hands.
He scared the crap out of me by saying shouldn't......Shouldn't?? Shouldn't?? Means there is possibility that I might feel pain la??!! o.O
So he put the plier into my mouth, clamp on one tooth, and he twist and turn and pop! Came out my tooth!!! Argh!! Eh....no pain wor??
Haha, my heart beat suddenly just stop beating like crazy and beat normally.
And he continue to pull out the other tooth as well....
And after that, I felt so relief....
Finally, the worst part, is over!!!! Hooray!!!

My pullout teeth, look at it, is so long!! o.O

My beat up face...haha, Yes I know I look ugly.
The doc stuff cotton into my mouth to stop the bleeding.

And the final part is the doc install the tiny metal for me and tie with a wire, which becomes my braces.
And vuala!! This is how I look now...

Smile! Smile!!

Well the pain wasn't as bad as the first time I had the rubber ring in my mouth, yet it stills annoys me.
My front teeth doesn't have the strength to bite anything, because it was being stretch by the wire, and if anything contacts with it, it hurts. Not that much but still enough to keep me away from chewing.
So because of that, I have no choice but to peal or cut the food into smaller slices and put it and the back of my mouth to chew.
For the pass few days, all I ever had was soup, or oats like Quaker Oats....
Something that I can swallow with.
Haiz.....you know liquid food won't fill your tummy to the max, as I get hungry REAL fast....
Just only yesterday I follow my dad to some seminar in a hotel, and they serve rice for lunch.
I have no choice but to eat something like this(see below pic).
Yeap just sausage and egg, even slice up I still have some difficulties to chew my food up.
It was yummy thou.

If I could bite better that day, I would have taken more eggs and sausages!!
They really are tasty!!

I wonder how long will my braces take?
Hopefully it'll take a really short period of time, I hate cleaning the braces....
=)
I hope this post doesn't discourage those of you who would like to have braces.
By all means go ahead...
As for me, well, initially I don't wanna put braces, but due to no choice, as a resort, I have to do it.
I'm kinda prepare for what ever suffering I may face cause I know sure will kena suffer like this wan....
But in the end, the suffering will pay out.
I'll have a cleaner teeth and a better smile. =)