We are The Kings and Queens!

Living life without a purpose.

Living such life is risky, cause you never know where you stand and thus you'll get tired and not know where are your goals. Is like living life the easy way, what ever comes, comes whatever goes, goes. Easily blown by the wind that we nor anyone on earth could predict.

You live, but without a purpose, and I think thats sad. Is like God gave you a life, but you know not what to do with it. Without purpose you only do what you think is right, for the moment, and in the end, whats next?

We have to root our goals and purpose on a strong foundation, something that is worth living for. Thats whats life is all about. Commitment and responsibility, inspiring others while you are inspired by others. Giving hope and strength while you draw hope and strength from others.

Life is beautiful, even when is not. Only if you know how to live it, otherwise, we are no different from the hollowness of this world.

I want to be like those people who give hope and inspiration to other people, it doesn't matter on what matters, all that matters is my life, my words, my action give them another day to live, another day to go on, another day to grow and another day to fight.

My life may seems very insignificant now, but thats my goal, before I die, this is what I wanna do, and I know I'll achieve it someday, as long as I stick close to God and do the will of the Father.

Finally

Finally I'm able to compose my new year resolution!

So here goes!

Personal:

- Be more forgiving
- Be less judgemental
- Be more sharper
- Be more wiser, quick to think slow to speak

God:

- Take up a bigger responsibilty in church
- Read the bible, at least half of the bible to be read finish by the end of the year
- Be on time for every CG and church service

Family:

_ Remember to call them every once a month
- Build stronger relationship with brother
- Learn to buy gifts for parents

Financial:

- Save at least $200 every month
- Eat more simple food

Health:

- Need to achieve a more fitter body by the end of this year or possible, before POS
- Eat more healthy food like fruits
- Eat fast food as little as 2 or 3 times a month

Friendship:

- Build a stronger bond with housemate
- Need to engage CG friends more for spiritual guidance

Work/Homework:

- Need to be confidence in doing homework
- Focus and stop being emo

Wow....seems like I have lots of things to do this year, alright...For those of you who read this, I would appreciate it if you keep me in track because I know I might go astray some how....

Long journey ahead...looking forward to it.

2010, Holding on...

What a year to kick off, wishing everyone happy new year, but never know what my future lies ahead of me.

Am I trying to hard? Am I fighting with my own strength? This world that I live in seems to gets colder every year.

What am I looking for?
What am I waiting for?
Do you know what are you doing to me?

It feels as if the world has turn against me,
My time is lost, some one stole it from me
Messy feelings, cold heart,
I do not bleed, because my blood is frozen,
Distortion of guitar banging in my ears,
Silence....
Still not knowing the truth

Funny how I know who to turn to,
but still I decide to go my way.
The truth is, I'm a fool.
The sun...the sun
I could see the sun in a far distance..
Seems out of reach...

But don't we all bleed the same way?
Don't we all have the same thing to go through?
Knowing this I realize I'm not alone...

This world, this world is cold, but you, you don't have to go...
And you're not sure what you're waiting for and you don't want to know more,
And you're not sure what you're looking for and you don't want to know more..

But hold on,
If you feel like letting go,
Hold on, it gets better than you know,
Don't stop looking you're one step closer,
Don't stop searching its not over,
Hold on!!

When The Tough Gets Going....We Keep Fighting!

Its been such a busy month for me, lots of things to be done,
No time to fool around, sacrifices must be made...
Haih...
I know along the road, I'll make mistakes,
Do things that I wish I have not done,
And Did not do the things I wish I should have done it,
Say words that I shouldn't say,
And Say not the words I should have said...

There will be times I'll feel like a broken angel on the ground,
Sometimes I'll feel like a symphony without a sound,
But its ok, We ain't perfect

There will always be tomorrow,
I'm gonna get what's mine,
Keep running, keep Going,
I'm going for the knockout!!
I can do it for sure!!

Cause I know I can make it right!

When I Subdue My Anger

Too damage, too much, too late.

This is what I used to believe. Was my philosophy in life...

Today is not my day, not at all...Today was suppose to be the final practice for P.O.S. (Cheerleading) for Wed will be the first preliminary round, where my pastor will give comment on how we can improve.

I left early, at 5.45pm in the evening, hoping to catch the 6pm 1U Bus that head straight to Kelana Jaya. While on the way there, I saw the bus far ahead of me, I waved but the driver either did not notice me or he didn't want to stop for me. I thought to myself, it was alright, there is another Rapid KL bus that head to KJ Station from 1U.

So I waited...and waited, and waited....for BLOODY 1hr30mins I waited for that bus, and to top it all up, it was raining...Finally the bus arrive, the bus was pack with humans, and I have no choice but to stand...

I thought I would reach Kelana Jaya early like always, but today, the road from BU to KJ is jam, super bloody jam. I was force to stand for another 30-45mins or so...I so late for practice...I was kinda worried for my team already....

And finally I thought by bad day was over, but no....I waited for another bus to Pyramid and that took me another 45mins or so...finally at 9pm the bus decided to move. I was on the phone with my mum, currently my family is going through some crisis, like serious crisis(Don't ask, I won't tell, if you wanna help, I suggest you start praying)...so usually even on a normal day, my mum would usually take more than half an hour to finish her conversation, since today is special, she talked for more than 45mins. Like I said, I waited 45mins for the bus, and finally the bus DECIDED to move, and not forgetting my mum is still on the phone with me.

I was the last person to go up the bus, I flash my touch'n'go card to the driver, he replied "tak boleh" so I step back open my wallet just to find I don't have any 1Ringgit bill...he closed the door and left...I was so frustrated, I sms one of my member telling her that I can't make it, even with the next bus on the way, I'll reach my church probably about 10pm, and the practice is about to finish I thought. Therefore I decide to head home instead for I have a pile of homework not done.

So I called Anna and complaint about how suckish our public transport is. I reach home, to my surprise another friend of mine called me, asking am I coming to church, I told her nicely that I couldn't come because da da da....in the end all I got was some scolding....

I hate to let the whole team down just because of my own inability, but honestly, I dunno what else I could have done, I could have called I thought but normally my call and sms was not answered...well, maybe I'm not so close with these new friends of mine, maybe its not their habit to pick up calls and replied smses...I dunno....It doesn't matter...

All I know is that at the end of the day, I was so pissed, and the worst part is I dunno who I should blame, no one is totally right, and no one is totally wrong, but even knowing that I can't help to be BLOODY ANGRY....I'm sorry, but I cannot help it...

I'm so pressured by so many things to do, but yet I cannot neglect any cause these are my commitment....this made me think of "IF"....
Like I said before, I hate the word IF so much that to me it felt like a swear word...

I began to listen to my rock songs, Alexisonfire is my fav to listen to at times like this...rough hands is the title...

And my thought for a moment began to have negative thinking, and thus lead me to imagine the life I used to had when I was much younger, being more mature than many of my friends, but yet so repulsive, so rebellious....

I use to swear and curse and say things that I know I shouldn't have said. I hate myself for doing that but yet I felt at peace when I did it. Words like Fuck! Chibai! Lanjiao! but never Bitch....and I almost join the brotherhood of gangsters just to fit in.

As I began to reflect I realize how much I've grown, change, into this person I am today...I've come a long way, and to only know that others are growing and learning as well, thats why I did not defend my self when my friend scolded me, even thou I was angry, damn angry, bloody angry...I know she has her reason...

I am learning and always will be, I've realize that I've grown to a higher stage in life, a new challenge. Please be patient with me, for I'm not the kind of person who pick up things fast, I learn through mistakes and short comings in life. Don't be quick to judge, for I only know this much, but teach me instead and I shall learn from whoever is willing with a grateful heart.

This is life, what is life without short comings eh?

What matters to me most, is that, at the end of the day, no matter what shit was thrown at me, before I go to sleep, I just wanna smile, so that tomorrow will be a brighter day.

An Act of Dicatatorship.

What does leadership means to you? What do you understand about leadership?

Its hard to understand why some people just wanna be on top of the others and make themselves feel good by doing so. No, in fact I don't understand at all. Human are just too selfish, but yet again the truth is only a handful of people who are so selfish that they ignore the rest and thinking that the whole world is against them. Thanks to them, they cause the whole world to go into disillusion and believing that everyone is a fake, or at least, this is what I think.

Whats the point of getting to heaven when you're the only one who is gonna be there?

To me, a leader should act as an example, a challenger, an inspire. A leader should not make all the decision making but guide the unguided or the lost to the path that might be good or better.

"Leadership is ultimately about creating a way for people to contribute to making something extraordinary happen." - Alan Keith

Honestly, is not easy being a leader, because leader comes with lots of responsibility and commitment. Some people wanna win so badly that they take matters into their own hands, turn it around and became an Autocrat or a Dictator.

Winning is not everything, by proclaiming that you only wanna do whats best for the "team" you indirectly saying I only care for myself, and only doing the team a favor for me.

This is a friendly warning to all my friends out there, if you are chosen to be a leader, be proud and inspire your team so that you will bring you and your friends to a level of new heights. Understand your members and always put them first, not you.

A leader is like a servant, he helps the master with the household and make everything fine, and when the master is happy, so will you be. A spirit of servant hood.

If you're not chosen to be a leader, don't be sad, be you can play your part to inspire others to inspire you, and don't try to be funny by taking over your leader's post. If you do so, I'm sorry to say that you just dug a hole for yourself and the end result is people gonna laugh at you no matter how good or bad you are.

Just Thoughts

Ah I'm finally back at Malacca.
To be exact I just came back from Bentong, Pahang few days ago.
And thanks to "Uncle" Hsien Wen hospitality, me and Anna really had a wonderful time there!
If you ask me, I definitely will go back there again.
The fresh air, the cold weather, the yucky hot spring, the beautiful waterfall and of cause, the view of Genting from the entrance of Hsien Wen's taman.
Oh ya, and not forgetting the Shu Shu Fan(don't ask me what it means, I got no idea at all). Is a food that they serve there. Nothing special about the food, but its the thing that they sell at a specific time that's what makes the food special.
Will tell you guys everything once I get the picture from Anna.

But for today, let me entertain you with my thoughts. Alright?
Its ok, you can always ignore my blog and stop reading at anytime. ;)

Ok first of all, I would like to congrats Anwar Ibrahim on winning the Permatang Pauh election, and for getting into the parliament today.
After such a long and immense battle with BN, finally he got his chance to sit and fight for the PM sit in the parliament and hopefully he won't forget to defend the right of the people in the country without any biasness, as he promise.
Hopefully through this change, Malaysia would be a better place to live without any racism, political bias and corruption.
I never like BN anyway....

Dato' Anwar and His wife trying to look cool

Ok enough politics for the day.
Yes yes I know, not many people like politics, but at least you must know whats going on mah, you need to know the fate of the country as you are living in this country call Malaysia.
Yes it may be sad to live here, FOR NOW.
But I believe that one day it'll be a better place for you and me.
Impossible is Nothing. Learn from Adidas man!! ^-^

As for me, I love my country.
I never thought of migrating.
I've been to a few country like S. Korea, Singapore and Australia.
They are all lovely and beautiful, huge and have beautiful weather, but nothing feels like home.
Don't believe me? Ask Beverly *Click Here* if you dunno who she is, even she misses home too!

How bout you guys? How do you feel about Malaysia?

For those of you who read my blog, pls pls pls leave a comment.
Let me know your thoughts, speak out. Anything just say something. I would love to hear from you. ^-^

Ok next topic.
Do you know that I'm a crazy football fan?
I am so crazy over football that I've gone to the extend and imagine, IF I was ever born in England, I would most likely join a football club, and work my way through so that I could play with the stars and be a star myself! Haha...
Can you imagine what I'm imagining right now? No?
Ok here's the link *Click Here*

Am I crazy or what? Hmm....
I guess other football junkie like me would have the same dream too don't tya think so?
Anyway, ever since the beginning of the new season of BPL(Barclay's Premiere League), I was on tip toe waiting for the new FIFA 09 to be release.
Its the only game that I'm still playing after all these years.
And as I was searching on youtube today, guess what??
I found the very first trailer of the game!!!
Woohoo!!!
I quickly click the link, waiting patiently for it to load finish.
After waited for so long, ok not that long, I finally get to watch it.
As expected, the graphic of the game was real like!!
Its super real as if I'm watching a real player playing the ball!
The movement, the reflex of the player, the physics......WOW!!!
I was amazed by the job well done of the producers.
Congrats to EA(The company of the game) once again for a superb job well done!!!
The trailer was awesome!!
For those of you who wanna check it out, *Click Here*
And for the web link *Click Here*

Here's the game cover of the UK version

Will blog about the Bentong trip once I get the pics.
Till then see ya!!
Remember to leave comments ya!

PS: I Don't like phantoms. Its creepy ya know!!

Spilling My Thoughts Out

Lately I've been wondering,
How is my room in kl like?
It's been awhile since I've gone back there.

Well, tomorrow it'll be my first time since almost 4 months ago.
I wonder how is the condition of the grass outside my house?
Did anyone pull it?
I wonder how thick is the dust off my room?
Will it be a few inch thick?
Did any new "residence" move into my room while I'm gone? You know I hate those especially with cold blood and makes noise in the middle of the night.

How about the poor fridge down stairs?
Has the freezer turn into an ice cave again?
Did anyone clean it?
And the washing machine, is it spinning?

Come to think of it, I took all those things for granted while I'm in Malacca.
Just because I don't have to use em I don't really care
Feeling a little bit guilty.

I hope my house is in tip top shape
Hope Hsien Wen could handle the pressure of being the only man in the house.
Guess I shouldn't worried should I?
After all, is not like I couldn't trust my house mates.
Still I couldn't help but to wonder what will my house look like when I get back tomorrow.

KL........
I never like the hectic life there
Not everyone in KL seems so alive
Mostly dead
Its a big city after all
But I miss the overly build gigantic mall there
Somehow it made me feel like home
Somehow it acted like an escape to another world of new

Aih...
It seems that I get a lil emotional when it comes to moving back to KL
It made me think about the life here in Malacca.
How I wish I can bring a little this of Malacca and a little that of KL to where I live
But life is unfair, you cannot wish for everything to come true
Yet its beautiful because it brings you to a new beginning

Never the less I've been looking forward to meet a new challenge,
To challenge myself in whatever may come my way
To see the world like I've never seen before

I can't wait for the new semester to start for me
Can't wait to achieve new gold and push myself a little bit harder
Its a new beginning, a new road
I can't afford to let the my life just pass by the way it has
After all, I only get to be 20 once
=)

One's Life Story

Life, what is life....
Is life about having fun? Running up and down the hills where butterflies and lilies grow?
Or is it about striving for the best, like having the best cars and the best job in the world?

Then what is life?
Is it about being famous, like a super star walking to the Grammy on a red carpet?
Or is it about getting rich and luxurious where you can buy anything that you wish for just by a push of a button?

Well then, so.....what is life?

Life.......
To me life is more than just having fun, striving for the best or even being rich and famous.
Life its self is complicated, having problems of its own and hard to deal with at times.
But without a reason or a purpose, life its self is meaningless.
Everyone on earth live for a reason, without a reason, people loose faith in life, loose hope, dreams and the strength to carry on.
Sadly, many people end their life hopelessly, tragically.

Life.......
What is your meaning to life?
What have you achieve so far?
Are you satisfied with it?

For me, life has only just began
It is only the beginning, the start, the bottom of the ladder
I still got a long way to go

Why?
Well, because in 2002 I found my life, I found my reason for living,
I gave my life to this man call Jesus,
That it self has changed my view of life,
My perspective,
I now I know my reason for living.

"And now the let the weak say I have strength
By the spirit of power that raised Christ from the dead
And now let the poor stand and confess
That my portion is Him and I'm more than blessed"

And that statement it self gave me strength,
Gave me so much more to live for,
I consider my self once lost, and now found
I finally found hope, found life, found all I need
All I wanted to find in life, I found in Him

Thats my life, thats all I'm living for
And thats, my life story


So whats your life story about? What are you living for?

My Beautiful Life

I'm down, angry, no mood to even eat my supper that I bought
Why? Why everything has to be so perfect? What if one day the bubble breaks?
Then how? Panic?
All I have is all I can give, I'm doing all I can to do what I should
But why do you have to keep comparing the past and presence?
They are both different thing with different issue, and different solution to them
Is not the same, so its not fair to me too, if you are going to compare them both!
I wish I would be brave enough to do it, to do the things that you request
All I'm asking is time, but it seems that I have push time for way too long
Until you got fed up with waiting....I'm sorry
I hope it all ends soon....
I'm sick of hearing her name, so don't mention it again

Life....The ups and downs of it.....haiz......